
Growing up, I didn’t want any kids. My husband and I almost broke up because of this. However, I did keep an open mind about it since I married very young. In my late 20’s, I had a change of heart and decided that I wanted to have a baby. A couple of years went by without having one and I honestly didn’t think anything of it because I thought I was still young and it would happen eventually.
Once I turned 30, I realized I needed to go see a doctor. Everything came back normal, so my husband went and got checked and everything was fine with him, too. We were diagnosed with unexplained infertility. I didn’t understand it as there was nothing wrong and yet we couldn’t conceive.
Five years in, we decided we would try an IUI. It didn’t work, so the only option from there was IVF, which we couldn’t afford. I also didn’t feel God leading us in that direction. At that point I was tired and overwhelmed and just needed a break from it all. I felt as if my life revolved around getting pregnant and became consumed with that.
In January 2018, we returned home from a trip and I didn’t feel well. I took a pregnancy test thinking it would come back negative like all the other times before. To my surprise, it was positive. I couldn’t believe it! I had to go get my husband so he could confirm that the test said positive. We cried and jumped and were overjoyed.
Sadly, a couple of weeks later, I had a miscarriage, and we were devastated, hurt and confused. It almost seemed cruel to go through something like this after all the years of trying. During this time, I felt God’s love like never before. I just had this feeling that we were closer than ever to having a baby even though I just had miscarriage.
In September 2018, (which would have been the time I was due had I not had a miscarriage), I found out I was pregnant again. We now have a little boy, who is almost 4, and he’s been such a blessing. We are having a hard time conceiving again, but I know, my God is faithful and will do it again.