
I married Erwin in March 2018. Even before our wedding, we knew we wanted children. Six months after we got married we decided to go for it.
At first, I wasn’t that worried. However, as it started to take longer, I began to wonder if everything was ok. After two years we decided to go to the doctor. We didn’t figure much out besides that my thyroid gland was working too slowly.
We didn’t know what was going on, and therefore there was no ready-made solution. This is when the doubts and many ‘why’ questions began. Why does it happen for others and not me? What is wrong with me? I felt like I failed as a woman because I couldn’t conceive.
From then on it went downhill. Because of the pain I felt in my heart, I started to isolate myself and my heart became harder and harder. I became distant from God. The disappointment I had been experiencing every month made me very angry.
When my husband and I decided to go to another church, a Spirit-filled church where faith was preached, things slowly began to change. I recognized that I had believed lies, and began to replace those with the truth of the Word. I discovered that it is God’s will that we be fruitful and multiply.
During a moment of prayer, a deep repentance came to my heart and I cried out to God, “Forgive me, Lord, for being so angry and believing the wrong things. It’s not your fault!” I cried tears. From that moment on, my heart softened and I could hear His voice again. Every day I spoke God’s promises about our situation and my body.
Then God showed me that I was still in bondage due to past sins. The next day, I went straight to a deliverance service and was completely set free. Less than a month later I had a positive test in my hands (after 4 years of infertility)! After repentance, obedience to God, and faith in action, the breakthrough finally came. Hallelujah!
Our daughter Chloë was born on June 20th, 2023. I’m still amazed at what God has done!