Testimonies - Page 10 of 39 - Moms in the Making

2022 was a year of completely trusting in God and walking in His will for my life, fully. At the beginning of 2022 we did our second IUI, unfortunately it was unsuccessful. We took a couple of months off and I went to the leader retreat with Moms in the Making where I was so encouraged in my journey of infertility and in life to just trust God, wholly. I came home ready to just step out onto the water where He was calling, not at all sure where it would lead.

We did our third IUI in April and again, it was unsuccessful. In May, we were met with the news that IVF would be our next steps for treatment, very resistant, we took another break from treatment. I was broken, I was hurting and I was in an unhealthy work environment and needed change. In June, I took a new job completely out of my career field that resulted in a pay cut but an environment that helped restore my mental and emotional health in a way I didn’t know was possible.

We decided we would not pursue any further treatment until after the new year but wanted to begin to financially see if it would even be possible. The enemy tried really hard to win. I truly saw every mountain possible to keep us from continuing treatment, but God! On a grueling hiking trip, where I felt I could not go up a physical mountain in Utah, He met me there. I heard His voice say to me that my journey is different, to trust Him and the view will be worth it. Sobbing and feeling so grateful, the top of that mountain was the most beautiful view I had ever seen.

My husband and I came home on fire for the Lord and our journey and we decided to start fundraising. Through the generosity of our army and through His grace, we are starting IVF treatment tomorrow for our first round and He provided EVERYTHING we needed, down to the last exact dollar before we even knew what that amount was!!

Though I don’t know the way our story ends, I have to stop and admire the beauty and the journey and His goodness that has brought us here, to this moment. God is good, He is the mountain mover.
We are in the 7th year of our wait. I went through depression and very dark days in the beginning. After some fertility treatments, we were told we would never get pregnant without IVF. I prayed for a promise and sought a solution that would allow me to fix it, while convincing myself that I was full of faith. I think I was treating God as a Santa Clause that would bring me a baby and prayer as a way to communicate my wishlist.

God shattered those ideas in 2021. I was reading Gangster Prayer by Autumn Miles, and about Jesus’s all-submitting prayer in the Garden, praying “not my will, but yours be done” when I realized I couldn’t pray it. I had a spiritual roadblock and was unable to move forward. What if God’s plan didn’t involve a baby? I didn’t know if I could be okay with that. For the first time, I didn’t just faith it away. I genuinely wanted to be able to pray for God’s will and to mean every single word. After months of wrestling with the Lord, He whispered it was time. I cried out like I never had before. I fully submitted my fertility to Him, and I’ve felt different ever since. His peace was the gift in surrender.

A few months later, we went to a Maverick City concert. During the middle of “Promises”, one of the singers said, “I feel like someone here has struggled with their faith because of infertility.” I knew he was talking to us. He stopped right then and prayed that God would bring a child to us. Since then, we have felt a sense of surety and know we have heard God speak His promise with our own ears.

God brought Moms in the Making into my life this year and it has continued to fuel my spirit. Our promise has yet to be fulfilled, but I know God has already given a testimony. He has changed my broken heart, and I can now say that I am thankful for this season because it brought me closer to God. It has blessed me with a stronger faith and the ability to see that it has never been about the baby – it’s been about Him! The baby will be a blessing, but the real gift is Jesus. He is my everything and will carry me through every season of life.
My husband and I were blessed with our miracle son and felt the Lord call us to have another baby. We were scared after experiencing infertility before with two losses and three years of waiting before our first son, but we obeyed. We ended up having to go to an infertility clinic after experiencing a year and half of wait again with our third miscarry.

They spoke death over my womb and said I would never naturally be able to get pregnant again and IVF wasn’t even a great option. We prayed and decided to keep trying. In 2021, we experienced 4 losses. I went to the leader retreat in March 2022 where the Holy Spirit met me. My prophetic card shared the parable from Luke about the fig tree and that when it puts forth leaves that summer is near. It then went on to say that the Lord is speaking to them that I am the fig tree and my summer of what I’ve been waiting for is near. I spent that amazing weekend with those women and went home.

I felt off and the next day took a pregnancy test and was pregnant!! I was full of fear from our 6 previous miscarries, but the Lord told me, “I have you”. I now have my second miracle son who is healthy and strong. He was born in November where the Lord redeemed that month that was also the month of my last miscarry. He is a redeemer and a miracle worker. My wait was not wasted as He told me I’d have another child and He answered His promise. God is faithful.
Being a part of Moms in the Making has led to so much breakthrough in my life. I spent years believing lies about myself, who God is and what He’s able to do. Up until the 2021 conference, I was convinced that I would live with fear and anxiety/panic attacks for the rest of my life.

I experienced such a breakthrough at that conference and God confirmed that He wanted me to be at peace. Being part of Moms in the Making helped me surrender all my plans to the Lord and step into His peace (John 14:27 – not like the world gives) which helped me follow His direction to try fertility treatments and trust His timing. A year later at the 2022 conference, it felt great to rest in the joy of deliverance in this area which builds my faith that God will provide in many other areas of my life as well.

My husband and I are still waiting for our miracle, but our marriage is better than ever and I feel so grateful to be part of this hope-filled ministry and a community that stands on God’s Word and the hope that He will fulfill His promises.

I now know that God doesn’t cause infertility and has only good gifts for His children (even better than what our earthly parents could give). Also, that His word is final. If it’s not good, He’s not finished.
My husband I got married in 2015. We decided to wait to try to have kids until the spring of 2017 in hopes that we’d have children close in age to my sister’s children. After a year of trying with no success, we were diagnosed with unexplained infertility. I was in such a dark place after being given that news and seeing month after month of negative tests.

We continued to try naturally for a while. I was put on some medications to no avail. I sank into a despondent, angry, depressed version of myself. At that time, I found Moms in the Making and everything started to change for me. I joined a virtual group, I started listening to Caroline’s podcast, later attended my first conference in the fall and began leading my own local group in January of 2020 after God did an incredible work to heal my heart. I was finally seeking God more than I was seeking a baby and my heart has never been the same!

After 4 years of trying to grow our family naturally, we felt peace about pursuing medical intervention. We went through 3 failed IUIs before moving to IVF in the fall of 2021. We transferred our first precious baby in November, but were heartbroken when we didn’t get to take that baby home.

In faith, I spent that holiday season in God’s word and in worship, reminding my heart that God was still good and that He is the God of miracles who always keeps His promises. In January of 2022, we were ready to transfer again. We were elated to find out at the end of that month that we were pregnant!

God sustained the precious life of our baby through a healthy 38 week pregnancy and we welcomed our miracle girl in September of 2022. We named our daughter Liana, which means, “my God has answered” in Hebrew. Her middle name, Esther, was chosen to represent that the timing of her birth was chosen by God to have an impact on His kingdom. So after 5 years, we have our miracle baby in our arms on this side of heaven. And for that I am eternally grateful. Never give up hope, because we serve the God of the impossible!

Isaiah 43:18-19
I was diagnosed with PCOS and hypothyroidism in 2019 after experiencing an early loss. It felt like a death sentence to my dreams of becoming a mom. I became very bitter and depressed from this.

During my wait, the word JOY was always prophetically spoken and prayed over me. I was always reminded that He desires me to be joyful even in the storm. Joy became my word. God restored my heart from bitter to joyful even before my miracle came and all the things the enemy tried to destroy with infertility, God turned them around and made us stronger. My faith, my marriage and my mental health.

After two failed IUI’s, we gave it a go one more time and praise God it worked. I was pregnant with our miracle baby! We named her Mila Joy which translates to “Miracle of Joy”.
After our third round of IVF and finding IVF “support” Facebook groups hopeless, I stumbled across and joined Moms in the Making in 2019. I attended a virtual group and went to my first MITM conference in 2020.

At my first conference, I believe God gave me the verse, Isaiah 40:31, and I would commonly pray – “I believe, Lord, help my unbelief” (Mark 9:24). I learned that faith is rest. Jesus is our place of rest and unbelief is unrest.

Contrast that with 2022 where God told me how HE saw me, and likely what I was stepping into in this new season, which was actually opposite of how I saw myself. Through the MITM prophetic card, God said He saw me like the Shunammite woman of 2 Kings 8 – a woman of incredible faith… That’s most certainly a long way from my prayer in 2019 – Lord I believe, help my unbelief!

The night I arrived home I had a dream. When I woke up from the dream, I was singing the lyric –“Just like Lazarus, you brought me Back to Life!” This was a lyric from one of the “sneak peek” songs that was never sung at the 2022 conference. I knew at that moment, after waking up from my sleep that the song was for me. That God was telling me, just like Lazarus, He brought me back to LIFE!!!! That He resurrected my dry bones.

MITM, and Caroline Harries, were absolutely the catalyst to growing my faith. I am 42 years old and still contending for our baby. Even so, I have more faith than I ever had that we serve an incredible, faithful and amazing God who is FOR US. At the conference, during the group prayer for women who felt they were too old to conceive, a beautiful girl prayed for me and then told me that God had a special gift for me.

Shortly after I returned home, I realized that my special gift was someone that I had already met – Jesus. He is my reward. He is my portion. He is my hope. It’s an eternal mindset we need. It’s not that I won’t receive earthly blessings, but running after Jesus is better. Jesus is who I need, above all, and it was He that brought me BACK TO LIFE!! HALLELUJAH!! ALL GLORY TO THE FATHER!!
In April of 2012 my husband and I began trying to have a baby. After about a year of trying we saw a fertility specialist and did testing. Our test results came back with a few things that seemed relatively fixable with some medication. Still we had no positive pregnancy tests.

We proceeded to do 4 IUIs that were all unsuccessful. I’ll never forget the doctor saying to me in frustration “why won’t you get pregnant”. Those words haunted me for awhile. We prayed about IVF but just did not have peace.

We decided to take a break from fertility treatments and pursued becoming foster parents with the hope of fostering to adopt. Our first (and only) placement were two beautiful sisters. When they left, I found myself so completely broken. I cried myself to sleep for months over everything. I was so miserable and felt so much pain in my heart.

On New Years Eve 2016, I had a moment with the Lord. I remember telling Him, I can’t live like this anymore. Whatever You want me to do, I’ll do. I felt the Lord quickly respond and gave me three specific things I needed to change in my life. Within three months of making these changes, I felt joy again. As each month progressed, I felt more, joy, peace and emotional healing. For the first time, I was enjoying life while dealing with infertility.

I had always wanted to be a part of a faith based support group but had a hard time finding one. I stumbled upon Moms in the Making during a late night search. I visited the closest one to me (which was almost 2 hours away) and knew I wanted to be a part of the ministry. In January of 2021, I led my first semester. In February of 2021, my husband and I decided to take the month to fast and seek the Lord for specific direction regarding having a baby. The Lord gave us clear direction AND provision by day 4. We pursued one round of IVF which ended with 3 embryos. We transferred all three and one stuck. I had our miracle baby girl in January 2022 at the age of 43. I am so thankful for Moms in the Making and we are so thankful to God who truly is the Way Maker!
I almost didn’t sign up for another chance at having a new prayer partner for the most recent round. It wasn’t until the deadline had passed and Caroline asked the leaders if anyone else was interested in joining for this round due to an odd amount of inquiries. I felt like I was supposed to speak up, so I did. And I’m so thankful!

My prayer partner and I have learned that we have more in common with our backgrounds. It’s been so refreshing to have someone who truly understands my thought process and knows what to pray for. The bonus was getting to meet her in person at conference. I’m so grateful for opportunities to be surrounded by Godly support.
Soon after marriage, we started trying for a family. Months turned into a year of negative tests. In May of 2019, our day had finally arrived! We were going to have a baby. Shortly after that, I was laying on that doctor bed hearing the words, “There is no heartbeat.” Our hearts were shattered, but we picked up the pieces and started again.

In 2021, a doctor finally heard what I had to say and I started fertility treatments. We had 3 failed rounds of IUI. After that, I knew my body needed a break. We started praying about adoption. Then we got a call that 2 little girls needed a home. We welcomed them in with open arms. A few short months later, they were gone and we were left picking up the pieces again.

We decided it was time to find out more answers and I had surgery. They found nothing that should cause a huge issue. I was, however, abnormally shaped and everything was narrow. The doctor ordered an MRI for a better look. I was excited to finally be getting some kind of answer. Then we had the follow up with the doctor and his words were, “I am not sure what happened, what I saw in surgery and what I see from this MRI are not the same.” God had healed me! And I believed it! That was in February of 2022.

In April of 2022, I finally saw another positive test!!! I knew God had healed me and our rainbow baby was on the way. Sadly, once again, I laid on that table and heard that there was no longer a baby. How could this be? I turned my focus to other things. I wasn’t ready to face the holidays, I wasn’t ready to face anything.

Then, out of nowhere, we received a call about a birth mom wanting us to have her baby. We dropped everything to get all that we needed in place to bring this baby home. She is now home with us and I know God was working through all of the pain.

I am thankful for Moms in the Making as it helped me find women in my area that are/were walking in my same shoes. It brought me a community in the most lonely times.